Knock Me Out

…And it’s the only hope I have today. I am just so tired! Insomnia has struck again. You couldn’t pay me enough to show my face in public in this current state. I feel like a zombie and pretty sure I look like one too. There is nothing like looking in the mirror first thing…

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Cakes, Vomit, and Love

As I sat in bed last night, enjoying what seemed to be the millionth episode of “Cake Boss,” with Buddy Valastro’s biggest fan,(my 9 year old daughter), I was jolted out of my half asleep, sort of spaced out relaxation mode, by a loud, roaring sound that caused me to scream, concerned my daughter had…

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Balanced Not Frazzled

Balance is one of my favorite words but I don’t know why. The word actually torments me. It’s quite the charade, really. I wear this necklace which says “Balance.” I hope as I wear it, the word somehow absorbs into my body and magically transforms my life. Instead, as soon as my feet hit the…

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Keep Fighting

  I recently enjoyed a telephone conversation with a dear old friend, whom I haven’t seen in years. Amazing, isn’t it, how years apart won’t change that bond? We covered the topics of raising adult children, and our more relaxed state with our younger ones, who came along later in life. We discussed midlife goals,…

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Make Time For Your Love

The time is now. What are we waiting for? Personally, I am waiting for the laundry to get done. That’s right….the world’s next great novel will have to wait. There are children counting on me for the perfect outfit everyday. The reality is, it is more than laundry. If you are raising children, you understand.…

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Frustrated Yet Thankful

Devastated today. A dear friend lost her battle with cancer this morning. I am nauseous and exhausted from thinking about it. I’m just so sad. There is never enough time. Nothing can prepare us. We have to face pain sometimes. One of my strongest feelings today was frustration. I was making plans to go see…

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Time

At a crossroads again. I’ve decided this is what life is all about….decision making. It’s constant. I prefer deciding on what is for breakfast, rather than choosing major life decisions, especially when those decisions will effect  the children. I remember a handful of years when life was steady and secure, no major decisions to be…

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Less Change, More Joy

And this is how my life goes…..I started this a month ago. Wow – how a month has flown by!……. Watching my belongings disappear into boxes today. I’ve experienced this more times than I care to count. Ok, I kind of want to count….14 times in 23 years, mostly state to state moves. Yeah, I’m…

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Homemade Love

It’s midnight and I am eating a bowl of Cream of Wheat. I put berries in it, because that makes it grown up Cream of Wheat. I am extremely nostalgic. It doesn’t take much for this mind of mine to drift back to memories of my youth. Even this very late dinner does that. It…

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Pom Pom Status

  I’m not into status symbols. I don’t wear a lot of jewelry. I don’t get excited about fancy cars. I like having a nice home but I’ve never dreamt of a mansion. Things were different when I was a child though. When I was a child, it was all about the roller skates….. Hard…

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