middle age – Aprons, Heels, and Yoga Pants

Be Careful

My morning started with a bang, literally, as the garage door hit the front of my car on its way down. My son was in the driver’s seat and all I could muster out of my very sleepy mouth was, “Careful!” In his defense…careful of what? The poor guy probably felt helpless trying to assess…

I just Want To Clean The Toilet

Every once in a while I get an entire day at home. When this rare occasion happens, I can’t contain my excitement as I think…..”I get to clean the house!” I just didn’t see this strange love of domestication phase coming. I’ll never forget a day in counseling many years ago, (nothing big – just working out…

Adoption and What It Taught Me

Lil Beans is 17 now. That is what I call her, and her birthday was yesterday. Well, we will never know her real birthday. October 1st is the birthday given to all abandoned children in China, as that day is a national holiday, commemorating the founding of the People’s Republic of China. Lily is my adopted…

Let’s Talk

I. Am. Tired. It isn’t from lack of sleep, or the one million loads of laundry I just completed. It is from love. The love I dispense on a daily basis is beautiful and exhausting. Each day as I sit to write, my heart tells me who to encourage. I have some unusual categories in…

Afraid of The Ball

I have been sitting at my desk for an hour now. I sat down to write. I even repeated the mantra in my head this morning….”writing first, writing first, writing first.” Unfortunately, catching up on text messages and rearranging my calendar for everyone came first. I do not know how to be selfish, but I…

Cleaning Up The Mess Together

I got a little stuck this morning….Stuck on the photos section of my computer. I couldn’t take my eyes off of my children. I couldn’t help but think of how lucky they are to have each other, and what a blessed momma I am. I also couldn’t help but feel the sting in my heart…

Life Lessons and Fake Cheese

Today I experienced something that brought to life and invigorated my senses. I tasted fine cuisine, smelled the country air, and stood in awe of creatures only seen up close by a few. Yes – I went to a country fair. The Sandwich Fair…nope – it isn’t a fair where you can taste the world’s…

Fall Down. Get Up. Repeat.

Is there anyone out there whose life is going as planned? Is this some kind of joke? Maybe it is just me – but so far every plan I have had gets hijacked….sometimes for the better – sometimes not. I have learned to accept it. This is it. This is life. Fall down. Get up.…

Filters, Phones, and Spelling Games

Wow – I had to get my two oldest teenagers new iPhones recently, due to plenty of issues they were having with their old ones. I use had to lightly…it was more like after 2 hours on the phone with Verizon, trying to fix the issues, I either break down in tears and beg them…

Peace, Love, and Midlife

Please tell me who I am supposed to be when I grow up, because I can’t seem to figure it out. I have always been “different.” I have never run with the crowd. I swim upstream. March to the beat of a different drum…What other cliche phrases can I use to describe myself? It used…