Afraid of The Ball

I have been sitting at my desk for an hour now. I sat down to write. I even repeated the mantra in my head this morning….”writing first, writing first, writing first.” Unfortunately, catching up on text messages and rearranging my calendar for everyone came first. I do not know how to be selfish, but I…

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Cleaning Up The Mess Together

I got a little stuck this morning….Stuck on the photos section of my computer. I couldn’t take my eyes off of my children. I couldn’t help but think of how lucky they are to have each other, and what a blessed momma I am. I also couldn’t help but feel the sting in my heart…

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Fall Down. Get Up. Repeat.

Is there anyone out there whose life is going as planned? Is this some kind of joke? Maybe it is just me – but so far every plan I have had gets hijacked….sometimes for the better – sometimes not. I have learned to accept it. This is it. This is life. Fall down. Get up.…

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Peace, Love, and Midlife

Please tell me who I am supposed to be when I grow up, because I can’t seem to figure it out. I have always been “different.” I have never run with the crowd. I swim upstream. March to the beat of a different drum…What other cliche phrases can I use to describe myself? It used…

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Just Let Me Warm My Tea

I canceled everything today, to enjoy a rainy day at home with the kiddos. I haven’t had a full day at home in so long. I plan on getting lots done – but for now I am still in my pjs at 9:30am, in my bed, with a cup of tea, staring at a blank…

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Score Cards and Giggles

It has been one week since my return from Sin City, and still my suitcase is lying open on my floor, full of sundresses and bikinis. I don’t remember the last time I took a vacation that didn’t make me feel like I need a vacation. I am always thankful to get away…but I also…

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Waking Up

Trust me – there are benefits to midlife. First of all it’s an awakening, not a crisis. Granted, much to the dismay of others, we sometimes awaken to the fact that we need a corvette ASAP. We awaken to the reality that we have put all of our hopes and dreams on hold. Maybe much worse, we…

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Keep Fighting

  I recently enjoyed a telephone conversation with a dear old friend, whom I haven’t seen in years. Amazing, isn’t it, how years apart won’t change that bond? We covered the topics of raising adult children, and our more relaxed state with our younger ones, who came along later in life. We discussed midlife goals,…

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Make Time For Your Love

The time is now. What are we waiting for? Personally, I am waiting for the laundry to get done. That’s right….the world’s next great novel will have to wait. There are children counting on me for the perfect outfit everyday. The reality is, it is more than laundry. If you are raising children, you understand.…

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Time

At a crossroads again. I’ve decided this is what life is all about….decision making. It’s constant. I prefer deciding on what is for breakfast, rather than choosing major life decisions, especially when those decisions will effect  the children. I remember a handful of years when life was steady and secure, no major decisions to be…

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